Rob,

Yesterday would have been your 25th birthday. I'm sorry I didnt write to you yesterday but I don't think I would have been able to to write anything that would have made any sense.

There were no celebrations yesterday, just tears and remembrance as there is every second of every day. I'm not going to say I thought of your more, or missed you more or loved you more yesterday than I do any other day. I still think about you all the time, I still miss you as much as I did the day you were cruely taken from us, I still love you as much as I did then and as much as I always will.

We sent up 25 Chinese lanterns but all I could see was that one bright star shining down on us. I hope it is you and I hope you could see us.

As I looked up to the skies above,
The stars stretched endlessly,
But somehow all those rays of light
Seem dimmer now to me.
As I watch the morning sun appear,
The shadows still don't fade,
As if the brightest light of all
Was somehow swept away.

Though I see the branches swaying,
And watch their dancing leaves,
The echoes carried on the wind
Don't sound the same to me.
As I listen to the morning birds
Sing softly from afar,
It seems to be a mournful tune
That echoes in my heart.

Another day has come again,
As time moves surely on,
But nothing now seems quite the same,
To know thatyouare gone.

The days and weeks and months ahead
Will never be the same,
Because a treasure beyond words
Can never be replaced.

I love you forever and always xx xx xx xx xx xx

I really don't know how I manage to get through each day without you, you were that person who always knew what to say and do to make everything ok. Now that you're gone I don't feel like there will ever be a time when everything is ok again.

I still think of you everyday, there are still tears for you every day, I still ache and long for a kiss or cuddle from you every minute of every day. There is just so much that I want to be able to tell you, want to be able to laugh about with you and it hurts so so much to know I can't do that.

Just over a week ago now was Valentines Day - all I could think about was the brilliant weekend we had together for Valentines last year and how we spent a weekend away just me and you.

I miss you. My soul mate.My best friend. My whole world. The other half of me. The love of my life.

Forever and always xxxxxxxxxxxx

It doesn't seem that long ago that you were by our side

We treasure the memories we have of you as we remember you with pride

The tears in our eyes we can wipe away

They say sorrow is healed with time

But they never had a Son who was loved as much as mine

Rob, you are in our hearts and on our minds every minute of every day. We love and miss you so very much. Completely lost without you.

Mum and Dad xxxxxxx

When you have a Son, you dream of all the things he'll be

You promise to love and care for him and give him everything he needs

How cruel of fate to deny us this chance and to take you in your prime

We thought we'd have you for the rest of our lives

Not for such a short period of time

They say that times a healer

But we know that it's not true

Because no amount of time will ever stop us loving and missing you

Missing you terribly Rob

Your heartbroken Mum and Dad xxxxxxxxxxx

Rainbow of our lives.

When rain doesn't stop

We need a rainbow.

To fill the sky with it's colours

and show us it's warm glow.

Since such a rainbow you are

Of heart of mine.

Which I need when I'm not able to look up

and face the world.

As you still hold my hearts

and that is why I call you Rainbow of My Life.

That glows when I appear faded

so you know now I am empty and drained

without a rainbow like you.

I came to thank you for sending a special little boy a beautiful rainbow on his birthday - I know your Mum has already done it but then I found this poem about a rainbow and as I read it, every word rang true. When you were taken from us, part of me went with you and it's so so hard to be here without you. We still talk about you everyday and you are forever in our thoughts and hearts.

I love you forever and always xx xx xx xx xx xx

I'm thinking of you more than ever today, if that's possible, on what would have been our 3 year anniversary and also the first anniversary of us getting the keys to our first house. I thankyou for how hard you worked to make it possible for us to get our own house and for all the fantastic memories you gave me in the two and a half years we were together.

I'm sat in our house and wish you were here to cuddle and kiss. I remember how we used to sit here and talk about growing grey and old together, it hurts me so much to know that that will never happen now but I promise that I will see you again one day.

There are no celebrations today just lots and lots of tears. We should be exchanging presents and anniversary cards but instead I'm sat alone in our house surrounded by photos of you.I don't need a photo to remember you because I have a million in my head. I'm hoping more than anything you are with us in spirit everyday but I hoping this more than anything today.

I love you forever and always x x x x

To The One I Love

Thank you for being the best friend I could have ever hoped to share my life with.

You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me.

You filled my life with happiness, love, laughter and joy.

No one has ever loved me the way you do.

I love you more than I believed I could love.

xx xx xx xx xx xx xx

Missing You

Now that you're not here

To share my life each day

I feel a sadness in my heart

That just will not go away.

When the sun goes down

And evening starts to fall.

Is when my arms long for you

And I miss you most of all.

For, when wewere together

We were as close as we could be

And there isn't anyone on Earth

Who could mean the same to me.

Of all the gifts in life

However great or small

To have you for a Son

was the greatest gift of all

Always so thoughtful,

so gentle and kind

The loveliest memories

you have left behind

You are a Son

with a heart of gold

And how much we miss you

can never be told.