Missing you to the point of not being able to breath. Could really do with your arms around me.

Love you xx

Happy father's day, old man.
Love you so much it hurts.
Today I'm going to remember pub lunches and walks on Ferryside beach when Zaien came to stay, when we felt like a completed family.

You're missing so much; Harry, Thea and Evie growing up and most importantly, your new granddaughter, Bella. They're all so beautiful and kind; you would be filled to the brim with pride. Us girlies are doing really well with our babies and Mum is the best Nana EVER. You may not be here and that'll never stop hurting, but we all have the most fantastic family anyone could ever wish for.

I'm also going to take a moment and cyber hug my Auntie! Love you so much Auntie Claire.

Until next time, Daddy.

I love you forever,
Nena xx

Oh Paul, when we needed each other we simply picked up the phone and were there for each other, how I have yearned for those moments.
As you know I am soon to be heading across to our loved ones in Wales, please send me some masking tape to tape over this gaping wound so I can face them, because I am in tears just knowing I am to return there for the first time without you my beloved brother.

Happy birthday Dad!
I cannot decide whether to have a curry or a Guinness in celebration of your birth.
I miss you so much, but today I will not mourn your life, I will celebrate it.
Yeah yeah, I'm getting out of your seat so you can watch the Election 2010 news and eat yer dinner on yer tray! ;-)

Love you so much, Old Man! xxx

Thank you bruv for all our laughs together, Happy birthday, you'r always in my heart xxxx CIJC

Happy Birthday Dad!!!

Lots of love your 'little shadow'

xxx

It's at times like these when the pain is most difficult to endure. It's those loved ones that Paul left behind who suffer the most. But, I do derive comfort in that Paul is not going through the suffering. I'd really love to take the pain away, but I'm sure Paul would want us to all to rejoice in some way, for what he brought, rather that what he has taken from us-himself. God I miss my best mate.

Happy Birthday Darling, always thinking of you and wish you were here to celebrate. Loving you always xxx

Missing you, feeling crap. wanting it all to go away. there's no relief not even in sleep.
when will it get better. xx

Hi Dad.
This is the first time I've written to you. I don't know why I haven't done it before. Actually I do. I wonder, who am I talking to? But it doesn't matter. You're in my heart now, just like you're in the heart of those above.
I only have one regret about our time spent together, we never had enough pictures taken together - I wish I had just one recent picture of the two of us, pulling a face or just doing a cheesy smile, but neither of us felt as comfortable in front of the camera as everyone else.
I am so grateful for the memories I have of you though. Our endless calls to each other to talk 'computers' or which business venture we should set up. Your stories about smoking your first cigar at 3 years old, or tales of your childhood with my aunties and uncles involving bikes, snakes, worms, cocoa powder, light shades and brother's heads!
I miss you, Dad. I'd give every limb to have you back. Words cannot express the hole in my heart that you leaving us has left.
All my love, No.2! x

Oh Paul my beloved brother, what can I write, you know what is in my heart. I love you and miss you dreadfully, who else could have held my hand as I grew from child to woman through the spritual unknown, you shared my shaman ways and recognised my gift then left before the curtain divided. When I catch up with you, believe me my brother, I will hug the stuffing out of you, although I will be hugging the radiant light of your beautiful soul. xxxx Your baby sister Claire In Jesus Christ

Hi my darling,
it'll be 35years on monday, I cant believe its another anniversary that we wont be able to celebrate together. We had some great times together and we had some stormy times too, i wouldn't change a thing except to have you back again. Miss you so much xxx

2 days ago I was thinking : what about visiting my friend Paul to see how he is doing? And then I found out the terrible news. I met paul the first time in 1996. I was wandering in "his" area. Cold,wet and tired. And out of the blue a car stopped and the driver asked where I was going. The next minute we were driving to his home. No need to say the driver was Paul. Without knowing me he offered me a warm bed, a hot shower and delicious food. The next day we walked around penpolion, up to merlin's hill and talked about life...My god,what a beautiful time, what a beautiful man. A few years later, same story. I was walking in wales and all of a sudden a car stopped, paul got out and with a smiling face just said: hello wim, I was expecting you !! Warm bed,shower,more good food,more good talking. I was and still am overwhelmed by such a good person Paul was...I will never forget him and his wise words. Thank you Paul. Thank you very much.One day I will be walking again in "your" area .....
Wim van de vijver
Belgium