Hmm..

It's been almost seven years now. It's strange how time passes. I remember standing in the sunshine, building stable walls, unaware of what the next hour would contain. Of course, I try to 'get on' with things, but this time gets no easier. So many questions, things I want to share. All I can do is return to this page, and wonder where on earth you are. Post a message every year, carry on wondering. Did you really pass on peacefully? What were your last thoughts? Were you happy with your life? Your favourite flower, book or song.. I often wonder what on earth you would think to all of this, would you be proud? I used to sit in that stable like it was some connection, as that was where I was told the news of you leaving us. I remember your disgraceful funeral. Clutching a photograph to go with you, and rosettes from two days before. It was my way of sharing it with you, I guess. I will continue to seek solace, and hope you knew you were, and still are, remembered, loved and missed so terribly. You told me to carry on smiling at the sunshine, I am trying.