They say you never what you have got, until one day it isn't there. I never imagined that the pain of your death would be so intense, and so long lived. Every day I think about you mum, and every day I wish I could go back in time, tell myself what was to happen, and tell me to make the most of your love, friendship, company and knoweldge before it was too late. It IS too late now mum, and there is nothing I can do about it, except mourn, and miss you more each day. Thanks you for everything you did for us, the scrimping and scraping, the sacrifices and for the love and care you gave us all throughout our lives, and are still doing now, 30 weeks later... a lifetime ago. Always in my thoughts, forever in my heart, all my love always, my lovely mum xxx

28 weeks, how life has changed,

The rock has gone, the steel the heart

replaced by loss, uncertainty and sorrow.

I knew your loss would hurt mum,

But I didn't think it would be this intense.

The house is sold now,

All your possessions are long gone,

as is all trace that you were

ever here on this earth

apart from us, your children,

and grandchildren

Who loved you so much, and miss you still

even now 28 weeks later

All my love always mum,

Always in my thoughts,

forever in my heart,

Never forgotten

xxx

26 weeks ago today mum, where has that time gone.

At times it seems like ages ago, at others, like it was only yesterday.

That one moment in time spreads itself through the whole last sad 6 months like a ripple in a pool, in which we are still dealing with the events of that day.

The memories of last July are still fresh in my mind, as are the memories of the hard year that you had before.

You did your best mum, you gave it your best shot, but sadly it wasn't to be,and at 8.15pm on Thursday 14th July, you made that big journey to be at God's side for all eternity.

I will never forget those long hard months after your operation, and I will always rememberhow you tried so hard to hang on to life.

I look at your picture every day, I see your smile happy and wide on your birthday, and I so so wish I could turn the clock back to that day, so that we could all enjoy it one last time, and that I could tell you all the things I wanted to, but never got round to.. and then it was too late.

You will live forever in my heart my love. I will always remember your sights and sounds,your smells and little eccentricities and I will miss them until the day I die.

All my love always mum, until we meet again my lovely

Always in my thoughts , forever in my heart, never forgotten

xxxxx

Our first Christmas and New Year without you Mum.

Everyone did their best to make it the special time that it always was when you were here, but it wasn’t the same.

The most important part of Christmas wasn’t there, and never will be again.

There was an empty space at the table, that place was yours.

I missed you so much, we all missed you, your love, your laugh, the sound of your voice, the touch of your hand, all knowing that theses simple pleasures are gone forever.

Until we meet again my lovely,

Always in my thoughts, and forever in my heart

All my love always xxx

22 weeks today,

Your life anded and you went away

22 weeks later, and I still think of you everyday mum.

I miis you so much still, sometimes it hurts

You weren't perfect, you were who you were,

and I loved and still do love you.

All my love always

forever in my thoughts and always in my heart

xxx

Still missing you Mum, life goes on, but it's just not the same without you here.

The light that you brought into my life has been extinguished.

Always in my thoughts, forever in my heart, al my love always Mum xxx

7 more days, another week

17 weeks now as we try to seek

The answers to why you were taken away

On that warm and sunny July day

You were so very ill and we didn’t know

That your time was coming, your time to go

You tried so hard to live, but it wasn’t to be

And that July day was the last you would see

I’ll never forget the times that we had

Some so good, and some so bad

But that is what life and love are about

It can make you laugh, it can make you shout

A mother’s love can never be replaced

It is pure, freely given and should be warmly embraced

Because one day that love will no longer be there

You have gone, and life is now a place of despair

Mum, you looked after us the best that you could

We didn’t appreciate that care as much as we should

How we all miss the love that you gave

That’s gone away now forever with you in your grave

It’s been a tough week mum, I’ve missed you so much and still am

You are always in my thoughts, and will be forever in my heart

All my love always

xxx